Awake

I know the sun is beautiful

I know it shines so bright

I know it could give my tunnel,

a little light so I could walk

But I can't see it behind dark clouds

that cover my sky

it has turned black

the wind is blowing

I'm freezing cold 

I'm lonely, it’s dark

Funny, I know the sun it’s watching

yet I'm just sitting underneath the tree

funny, you give a warm blanket

but I refuse it, I'd like to freeze 

I sit, I stare, I punish myself

I don't move, I don't blink

I fill my mind with dust

Dust that blocks the little light 

that enters through the edge of the door 

‘I love you’, you say

‘you are worth it’ 

I don't believe you, it’s a lie

I kiss my wrists, I hope to heal the

ruby scars that shine in the dark

The lake is silent

as I walk towards it

the rain its falling so hard it hurts

tsunami ties that dare to drown me

I let them, though

But then I see it, across the lake

I see a ray of pure clean light

I think I'm dying cause its freaking cold

but it turns out it’s my saving call

I see that light’s coming through my clouds

the storm is going away

I raise my face for the sun to kiss

and I can feel the corners rising up

patiently I sit, the clouds are leaving

I'm still not worth it, but all is clearer

the sun was just hiding, he didn't leave

he took my hope but now it’s back

Can you believe it? 

There's a rainbow! 

there's birds, there's light,

everything's alive

Butterflies kiss my writs graciously 

they forgive me for being wrong

I feel happy they healed in time

I smile as I wake up

I twirl and jump, I realize

I didn't know it but I'm alive 

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